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I let go of ever visiting the rainforest, then suddenly I was there. Somewhere I never thought I would be, never thought I would see. Hiding more secrets, more mystery than I ever believed and closer than I imagined. Just a short drive from Kuala Lumpur, I was at a hill station where I could finally breathe, away from the pollution and heat of the city.

The moment I felt my real feelings, back in a Native American healing in 2016, I discovered what a great liar I was. Lonely, depressed, desperate… the lowest of the low… No matter how my life looked to anyone else the only thing that mattered was being real with myself. But I was still lying, so poetically, so romantically, tricking myself, that my lies grew even more dangerous. Luckily life protected me from myself, from acting on what I thought was real. Instead I got on a plane to Spain and started hiking, each step bringing me closer to the truth.