My mother passed away. This episode I talk about the cycle of life, funerals, being missed, being remembered, and the role of children.

My mother wore the chain she forged in life, and pressed it upon me. I feel a sense of relief for her passing. Her birthday approaches and I feel nothing.

I read again from Poe.

The cycle of life repeats. My turn to die is in play.

This episodes deals with the election for president as politic entered group therapy recently.

I read from Anarchism and other essays by Emma Goldman. The article is entitled “patriotism: a menace to liberty.

The real separation of human is based on wealth: rich vs poor.

I call for a national divorce between American and politicians.

In this episode I discuss a new member to the group who was diagnosed with co curing and has decided to do both, group therapy and NA. I read from my copy of the narcotics anonymous blue specifically on recovery and relapse.

My opinion of therapy methodologies is just that , my opinion. I support whatever works for you. NA didn’t work for me.

Life is not a group effort

Treatment becomes our new addiction

This episode is about a therapy session topic again; Memorial Day weekend.

We spoke of life as war metaphor, the difference between surviving and victim. There is also mention of the current state of conflict around the world, and the purpose of remembering those that died fighting.

I read from Robert Bloch “material instinct”, part 2.

Prepare for it and remember. Party this weekend and be grateful for war.

This episode deals with a few therapy sessions and the topic of patience.

I deal with patience itself and the origins of the frustration they comes with someone telling you to relax or calm down.

I talk about horror movies in the 80s.

Good times.

This episode is really about the last month or so and my battle with serious illness.

Influenza A
Pneumonia
Sepsis blood infection

I read from Lovecraft story Herbest West reanimator.

I know it is not a standard episode but what the hell…

I survived.

This episode is another based on group therapy and what I’m dealing with my mother being in a nursing home. These are observations I have made for my mother as well as the other residents of the home.

The reading is Whitmans “Thanks or old age”

I also use the bill Murray film Groundhog Day to express the similarities between repetition and seeing your life from point of old age.

Today’s episode is an update on my life dealing with my mom in a nursing home. I went to group therapy and told them what I feeling. They told me I was angry because my own life had disappeared. I don’t agree.

The reading is HP Lovecraft’s “Dagon”. I chose it for obvious reasons.

If you are a victim of rape like me or any kind of abuse you can always reach out to me and talk. I’m here to listen

No judgment ever